..BABY AUGUST..

THINGS HAVE BEEN ROCKY THE PAST COUPLE WEEKS BUT EVERYTHING IS STARTING TO SINK IN AND MAKE SENSE DAY AFTER DAY..

FIRST I WANT TO THANK *EVERYONE* FOR THE PRAYERS AND KIND THOUGHTS..YOU GUYS HAVE BEEN GREAT AND WE COULDN'T ASK FOR BETTER FRIENDS AND FAMILY.. 

YESTERDAY I HAD MY D&C DONE..THAT WAS PROBABLY THE MOST NERVRACKING THING I HAVE EVER BEEN THROUGH IN MY LIFE..DR.ROSTOCKI WAS GREAT AND HE EVEN SEEMED TO THINK I DID GREAT TOO..I AM GLAD I GOT ALL THAT PAST ME AND DON'T HAVE TO WORRY ABOUT SURGERY ANYMORE..RAY AND LINDA WERE GREAT ALSO WHILE THEY WAITED FOR ABOUT 4 HOURS ALL TOGETHER(THATS INCLUDING US WAITING FOR MY SURGERY TO START AND WAITING FOR IT ALL TO BE OVER WITH)..I FELT FINE AFTER THE SURGERY..RAY CAME IN WITH A STUFFED BUNNY RABBIT AND HELPED ME GET DRESSED AND ALL..I WAS STARVED WHEN I GOT OUT OF THE RECOVERY ROOM SO WE WENT TO WENDY'S I HAD A BAKED POTATO WITH A SMALL FRY AND A STRAWBERRY MILK SHAKE..I AM REALLY GLAD I WASN'T SICK AFTER WARDS..ON THE WAY HOME I STARTED GETTING HOT AND UNCOMFORTABLE SO I FROZE RAY AND LINDA TO DEATH PROBABLY WITH THE AIR CONDITION ON AND THE WINDOWS ROLLED DOWN..

AFTER WE GOT HOME I SLEPT ALL DAY..GOT UP FOR ABOUT AN HOUR AND WATCHED AMERICAN IDOL..THEN WENT BACK TO SLEEP..SLEPT ALL NIGHT AND DIDN'T WAKE UP TIL 11:30 THIS MORNING..SO I AM HOPING I SLEPT ALL THAT ANESTHESIA OFF..

 

THE ONLY SIDE EFFECT I HAVE HAD IS CRAMPING BUT IT ISN'T NOTHING THAT THE PAIN MEDICATION DOESN'T TAKE CARE OF..

 

 GLAD I GOT IT OVER WITH FOR SURE..

THE BUNNY RAY GOT FOR ME..

RAY AND I HAVE ALSO BEEN TALKING AND WE WANTED TO DO SOMETHING SPECIAL FOR THE BABY..SO WE NAMED HIM/HER AUGUST(MEANING GREAT AND MAGNIFICENT)..AS MOST OF YOU KNOW WE WERE DUE IN AUGUST SO IT JUST KINDA WENT TOGETHER..WE ARE ALSO GOING TO PLANT A WEEPING WILLOW TREE OUTSIDE THIS SPRING ALSO FOR SOME CLOSURE..

I MADE THIS LITTLE SCRAPBOOK PAGE FOR THE BABY..WE ARE GOING TO TAKE IT TO BEN FRANKLINS AND SEE IF WE CAN'T HAVE THEM MAKE A FRAME FOR US SO WE CAN HANG IT ON THE WALL INSTEAD OF KEEPING IT IN A BOOK..THERE IS ALSO A POEM TYPED UP FOR AUGUST THAT MY FRIEND ANJELETTA SENT TO ME ON FACEBOOK A FEW DAYS AFTER WE FOUND OUT THAT WE MISCARRIED..

 

"Daddy please don't look so sad,momma please don't cry.
Cause I'm in the arms of Jesus, and he sings me lullabies.
please try not to question God, don't think he is unkind.
Don't think he sent me to you and then changed his mind.
You see I'm a special child, I am needed up above.
I'm the special gift you gave Him, a product of your love.
I'll always be there with you, so watch the sky at night.
Look for the brightest star and know that's my halo's brilliant light.
You'll see me in the morning frost that mists your window pane.
That's me in the summer showers, I'll be dancing in the rain.
When you feel a gentle breeze from a gentle wind that blows.
Know that it's me planting a kiss upon your nose.
When you see a child playing and your heart feels a tug,
Don't be sad mommy, that's just me giving your heart a hug.
So daddy don't looks so sad and momma please don't cry.
I'm in the arms of Jesus and he sings me lullabies!"

 

OF COURSE RAY AND I WERE BOTH CRYING WHEN WE WERE READING IT BUT I WANT TO THANK ANJELETTA FOR SENDING IT TO ME..

FLOWERS FROM KATHY..SHE IS SUCH A KIND SOUL..

RAY AND I WANT TO THANK EVERYONE ONCE MORE..YOU GUYS HAVE BEEN GREAT AND WE LOVE YOU ALL DEARLY..

..MUCH LOVE..